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Actually, a high IQ sugar baby I helped to go to get a scholarship in Germany changed my mind and helps me see the truth that trying to make a girl like me is actually a very bad idea.
How do we make girls like us anyway? Not much in our control. It’s set by how we look, on how rich we are. Not much. Mystery. Bull shitters like mysteries.
I thought helping girls achieve their dreams, respecting women, empowering women will make girls like me.
The result seems to be the opposite.
Either they show disgust or I ended up with girls that’s would pick me last.
Actually, keeping things transactional and bargain reasonably seem to make them like me. However, let’s ignore her for a while.
Before her, I put too much attention on whether girls like me or not forgetting that 90% of what a girl chooses is based on incentives. I ended up spending 2 weeks of my income and got very little.
That’s while she is selling herself cheaply to my friend or even for free because she can’t get other sugar daddies easily. She used to be reasonably cost-effective.
After I am generous, she’d rather fuck everyone else but me.
And girls are not the only one that are like that. My friend? You think she is grateful that I introduce very pretty and high IQ sugar babies to my friend?
My friend told her that she should sign up to seeking so she doesn’t need me anymore.
My friend got bored of her, and instead of sending them to me, he throws it away making sure I don’t get any.
One day, losing her biggest sponsor and studying too much she asks money from me. I was pissed. Why she came to me only when she’s desperate. Her other sugar daddies don’t care about her at all and yet I am in the bottom of her totem pool.
However, I felt guilty that got her into this deal. She used to have a job before she met me that she left because we got a deal where I fund her germany study and she lives with me. It’s not my fault she is a scammer, but I felt guilty anyway.
However, again, because I want her to like me, I lend her money, instead of asking for nudes. I thought if I show her respect and lend her money, maybe she likes me. Not much. I lent her $35. But then she keeps wanting to borrow money and I am not getting anything.
I am suspicious. Something isn’t right. All these sugar babies say they like generous men my friend told me that I am paying/giving them too much. Yet they seem to dislike me most.
I asked my other friend what to do and my other friend told me to just let her starve. I have no idea what to do. I paid good money for my other friend to be negotiator. It turns out, my bro is only interested in keeping things simple so he doesn’t have to think.
After she is healthy she fuck my friend again that disrespect her a lot as long as I don’t join. Fuck. My friend walks her on leash like dogs.
It seems that everyone else are cruel to her but me and she prefer everyone else.
I finally offer money for chat. Again not much. Around $3 per hour. I start learning that offering too much means I am not going to get anything.
She said she doesn’t like me because she think I am autistic idiot. Also she told me that girls like money and not me.
At that time I already knocked up another high IQ sugar baby. Keeping things transactional works. That one keeps saying she likes me and that our relationship is not transactional and bla bla bla. She turns me off. But because she gave me a child and her IQ is high, I love her anyway.
So, all this time I want a girl that like me. The truth is, girls I can pay makes me happy more. Also they like me more if I pay them instead of I give money and get nothing.
Now the puzzle starts fitting in. Even if it’s true girls like money, why doesn’t she like me that pays more?
Because she can get my money even though I get very little. She can get my money even though she makes everything sucks. Why? Because I am an autistic idiot that are obsessed with keeping my words and be fair instead of just renegotiate and not paying.
It’s probably like why Afganistan fighters don’t fight Taliban even though the US pay them well.
I thought it’s wrong to break promises. So a pattern of my dealing is I promise one thing in exchange of another thing. The other guy don’t do his part, I keep my part.
While the money is relatively small and the whole thing is experimental, I regret helping other people and be generous. I am not even donating to orphanages now.
Everything is transactional to anyone and I am now very careful that transactions are balanced.
Now, I bargain like fuck when it comes to cash payment. I am still generous when it comes to taking sugar babies to delicious restaurants. Hei I still want them to like me. Burning money in front of potential mate is “romantic”.
That’s what expensive restaurants are for. Of course, I prefer to buy cheaper prawns rather than lobsters now because girls are more impressed with the taste of the food than the sight of the bills. Again, cost effectiveness is key.
It seems that spending that doesn’t really help girls, and don’t empower girls, are actually more useful at making girls like me.
If we give money, she can use the money to be more independent from me. If I let her play good video games and take her to delicious restaurants, the only way she can keep getting those is if she chooses me.
So most white men are partially correct when saying I shouldn’t pay women. Don’t pay cash a lot. A bit of cash speed things up a bit.
I realized that the main reason why kids have poor parents is that their mom doesn’t like guys like me. Hence, it is toward my best interests to ensure my money don’t go to those kids.
Since then I have adopted the Holocaust survivors motto. “Never Again”